I play a lot on Pinterest, looking at dresses, mostly dresses and shoes, and following other crossdressers. I’ve also started following cosplay and steampunk, as well as goth and emo boards, looking at the kind of outfits I would love to wear. I yearn for the freedom to express myself for the person who I am instead of the repressed version of myself I’m forced to lead. It’s rather depressing.

I think I need to make a resolution this year. I resolve to break free of my circumstances and to embrace my true self. I resolve to build up a wardrobe and becoming involved with the local TG community. I want to meet other girls like me, and maybe find some romance in my life. I’m not gay, but maybe I am a little. I wouldn’t mind finding a special someone, a guy who wouldn’t mind a special girl like me.

I don’t know, but I’m ready for a change.