I just bought my first wig. I found one on Amazon the other day, on sale, with a great consumer rating. I’m not expecting angels to sing when I get it in, nor do I expect it to work miracles. It’s only one small piece of the puzzle, one I’m learning to put together to … Continue reading
Tag Archives: Gender identity
The Mask
I’m awake, dressed in boy mode, and ready to go work. Sometimes I feel my everyday life is a sham, that I’m playacting through life, wearing a societal-approved costume. I envy those women who can make the transition and live fully as the person they truly are. They have more courage that I ever will. … Continue reading
New Twitter Account
I just set up a new Twitter account, and I’m looking for people to follow, and hoping to find people to follow me. I’m searching for other T-girls like me, focusing more on crossdressing, fashion, make-up, and lifestyles, and shying away from all things pornographic. Please follow me, and I promise to follow back! I … Continue reading
Who or What
There are days when I wonder who I am, and there are days, like today, when I wonder what am I? I look in the mirror and I’m torn between what I see and what the ideal man is, and the ideal I want for myself which in itself is a contradiction. I want to … Continue reading
Going shopping
I’m back home and wishing I could go on another trip, this time as Stefani. I told my friend about it, and of course she’s all for it. First things first, I need to assemble a wardrobe. I haven’t got shopping in almost a decade. I’m feeling sad about it. I’ve done the all too … Continue reading
Quiet musing
Some how my co-worker got me to open up about my ex-wife and ex-girlfriend. I try not to invoke their memory, but when prompted, I may never shut up about them. There’s something humiliating about being cheated on. You begin to wonder if you are not enough of a man to satisfy them. That leads … Continue reading
Starting over
This is a scary step, but I think it’s time that I let my true self out. My name is Stefani Lara, and I’m a crossdresser. I guess, if I were to be honest, I’m transgender, a woman cursed with a man’s body, but I’ve made my peace with that. For the most part. I’ve … Continue reading
Stefani Within 