I want a relationship. Kind of. I guess. Do I? Damn it, I don’t know! Why are we wired that way, to seek out the companionship of others, especially when we’ve been hurt to the very core? I’ve been hurt that way, making me curse the day I was even born. That’s a special kind … Continue reading
Category Archives: Being Transgender
Looking back – 2016
I can’t believe another year has come and gone. It’s amazing just how quickly the years fly by. The older I get, the quicker time seems to pass. It’s not a new phenomena. We all repeat the common refrain this time of year, I can’t believe how fast time flies by! This past year, I met … Continue reading
Still about my hair.
I bought a new wig. Two of them, as a matter of fact. Should come in on Wednesday. I can’t wait! I want to wear them now! Chop chop! My current wig has had it. It looks great in photos, but up close, it’s pretty ratty looking, especially in the back. No amount of conditioner … Continue reading
Last Friday Night
I think I’ve grown somewhat comfortable going out in public now. It’s a strange feeling, no doubt, to go out uninhibited. I’m still a little hesitant, scared of being recognized, worried about being attacked for being true to myself. This journey isn’t an easy on to undertake, and I’m not even transitioning! Mad respect to … Continue reading
Company Christmas Party
The company Christmas party was held this past Sunday. I wasn’t interested in going the past few years, but seeing that I’m in a supervisory role, and I seem to be in good standings, I thought it prudent to go, so I did. I didn’t know what to expect. I knew there would be food, … Continue reading
Wig, wig, wig, hair!
I recently decided to start growing out my hair. I say recently, though the truth is that it’s been growing for a few months now. I hate having the wear a wig. It feels unnatural and I fell that the upkeep is next to impossible. Maybe what I should do is spring for a high-quality, … Continue reading
Becoming the norm
I went to the movies. I suppose in the grand scheme of things, not really a revolutionary move, however I went so en femme. Now, I’ve been out as Stefani several times, but rarely here in town, except to a gay bar, or maybe a late night drive. I mean, okay, I went to Walmart … Continue reading
Thank God It’s Almost Over!
This has been a shitty month, it really has! I haven’t had a chance to relax all month. Basically Stefani has been put on hiatus for the duration of the month. I’m not at all happy about it. I’m glad this month is almost over. It almost all revolves around my job. At the beginning … Continue reading
Almost nightmare
I accidentally sent all my pictures to everyone in my contact list. I was a virus I downloaded, I suppose, something that outed me to everyone I knew. It was a horrifying moment in my life, which thankfully, was nothing more than a bad dream. I very, very bad dream. Can you imagine? All my … Continue reading
Losing my secret piecemeal
I went and sat down in the HR manager’s office at the end of my shift just to talk before heading out for the day. We were talking and I brought up that I wanted to find a therapist because I felt that I had some issues to work through. She said I didn’t but … Continue reading
Stefani Within 