I now remember why I hate the process of becoming Stefani- the endless shaving. I haven’t even begun to shave yet. I started off running the hair trimmer through my legs. Yuck! The human body can be so disgusting. I feel like a yeti, and I haven’t even begun to trim my upper body. Luckily, … Continue reading
Category Archives: Thoughts
Going shopping
I’m back home and wishing I could go on another trip, this time as Stefani. I told my friend about it, and of course she’s all for it. First things first, I need to assemble a wardrobe. I haven’t got shopping in almost a decade. I’m feeling sad about it. I’ve done the all too … Continue reading
Ready for a change
I play a lot on Pinterest, looking at dresses, mostly dresses and shoes, and following other crossdressers. I’ve also started following cosplay and steampunk, as well as goth and emo boards, looking at the kind of outfits I would love to wear. I yearn for the freedom to express myself for the person who I … Continue reading
My dream…
It’s a silly dream, and one I’ve spoken before, but this picture brought it to the fore of my thoughts. It’s where I find myself, still in grade school, standing in front of the student body, in a line of other students in the gym, waiting to go out on a catwalk, like some sort … Continue reading
Dressing for work
I’ve been thinking about jobs lately, or to be more honest, a wholesale change in my career trajectory. I’ve spent most of my adult life working in retail, and it just doesn’t jive with me personality type. I’m not engaging or open, friendly or prone to smiling. I’m closed and reserved, not opening up until … Continue reading
What would you do?
I was playing on Pinterest when I ran across the image on the right. If tomorrow you woke up as the opposite sex, what’t the first thing you would do? The grammatical errors notwithstanding, it got me thinking, what would I do? It’s a thought that haunted me growing up. I would fear that I would … Continue reading
The struggle between identity and faith
Here it is, another Friday night, and I’m lock up in my room, wishing I could go out and enjoy the nightlife. Sadly, for a girl like me, I don’t live in an area that’s conducive to being out. One, it’s the bible belt, and two, the area is so small that I would be … Continue reading
My return
I can’t believe I’ve been gone this long. I let too much time pass, but I won’t do so again. I’m here to stay. I recently started getting into pinning on Pinterest. You can find me at Stefanilara16. It’s been a very long time since I’ve been able to indulge in my hobby. That has … Continue reading
I am not me
I look in the mirror and see a stranger looking back He is not who I am He is not who I’m supposed to be. I am not me I am what the world sees I am not who I feel I am defined by expectations I feel lost and broken beyond repair of man … Continue reading
Frustration boiling over
I never cease to be amazed by how some people let themselves become blinded by some ridiculous notion of sycophancy. Perhaps were I to have been an ass-kisser, my life would have been so much easier. As it is, I have to tolerate slander and nothing real is done, other than some empty gesture. I’ve … Continue reading
Stefani Within 